Life right now feels like its falling back into this rut.
I should be happy im free and alive and I can do what ever I want.
I feel so alone. But that's the way I want it to be.
In truth, you like the pain. You like it because you believe you deserve it, and the fact that you’re putting yourself through pain means you are doing what you, by all rights, ought to do. You’re doing something right. Your ability to withstand pain is your claim to fame. It is ascetic, holy. It is self-control.
