She is so beautiful.

Hey America, I have a cute idea. At least sort out your health care system, hand gun violence, unemployment, public education, gay marriage, marijuana legislation and middle east conflict before you fuck around with the internet because lets face it, there are bigger issues in the world than someone uploading a photo with a musician in it.

If only I was as strong as you thought I was. .

“Why do you want to die? Why don’t you want to exist? If you don’t want to participate, my darling, if you don’t want to be part of the happy anxious societies, then turn. Don’t wish to disappear, wish to find something satiating, even if it’s destruction and malcontent. Because I love you so, my darling, and would rather see you evil than dead.”

cold coffee.

Tell me if you need a loving hand
To help you fall asleep tonight
Tell me how to fall in love
The way you want me to
Cos I love the way you wake me up
For goodness sake, will my love not be enough?

Plan,routine, word.

EXERCISE: Aim for:

 gym 4 x a week for a total of 60 mins. 

cross trainer - 20 minutes 5.5 mph

bike - 20 minutes resistance level 6 

stepper - 20 minutes, level 10 or cross trainer. 

On the days when I cant gym, I shall do precisely this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E63OUoRuCSU

 this workout but x 6, 60 minutes of exercise and man is it hard, but beauty is pain. As for eating, I really cant write it all down, basically I really watch it, portion control, healthy and fresh, nothing to drink BUT water, or diet coke. Fruit to satisfy my sweet tooth, nice filling breakfast to kick start my day and limit the carbs. 

4,3,2,1 100 cal exercise ;)

40 Jumping Jacks (full range of motion!)
30 Ab Crunches
20 Squats
10 Pushups

This is surprisingly fun to do to upbeat music, it really does help tone your body! Perform the cycle once, then rest until your heat rate slows (not to resting rate though, just so it’s not as fast as it was while you were working out). Then repeat, 2-3 times I’d say. :)

Fear less, hope more, eat less, chew more, whine less, breathe more, talk less, say more, hate less, love more and good things will be yours

How much exercise do you really need?

1. To increase cardiovascular fitness levels?
20 Mins, 2-5 times a week.

2. To lose weight?
20-30 mins, 3 times a week.

3. To tone up?2 sets of 15 reps, 2 times a week.

4. To maintain fitness / weight?
20-40mins, 3 times a week.

5. To increase flexibility?
5-10 mins, everyday.

Dare I......

Dare I say how I am really feeling?

Dare I say where my head is properly at?

Dare I utter the words that chase themselves in circles ‘round in my mind?

Dare I answer, honestly, when you ask me how I am?

Dare I confess truth, to the man who sits in a highbacked chair, weighing up my sanity on a scale of one to completley batty?

Dare I admit to how little i am eating?

Dare I admit that the blackness is becoming thicker?

Dare I admit to how entirely iI hate myself?

Dare I ask for help?

I dare not, for who would believe, this charming eloquent sucessful young lady,
is really a little girl, dying inside.

Prisoner in a lonely land

The problem will not change,

You can’t dispose of this mess.

Your empty heart beats alone,

And these nights have been filled

With people walking in and out of your bed.

But the morning still comes,

And your left alone.

Shattered heart,

Because none of them are yours to keep,

But just another person

To fill the void in your heart for a moment.

And then its goodbye again,

Shattered heart,

And your left alone.

“Let’s face it: I’m scared, scared and frozen. First, I guess I’m afraid for myself, the old primitive urge for survival. It’s getting so I live every moment with terrible intensity. It all flowed over me with a screaming ache of pain, remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted. When you feel that this may be goodbye, the last time, it hits you harder.”

—	Sylvia Plath

I can’t tell if the hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach is from missing you, knowing I have to get over you, not missing you as much as I thought I would, realizing things I couldn’t see when you were in front of me, knowing I’m not the only person feeling like they don’t know you anymore,…

imsorry

I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like listening to music alone. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realized that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but  people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.