In truth, you like the pain. You like it because you believe you deserve it, and the fact that you’re putting yourself through pain means you are doing what you, by all rights, ought to do. You’re doing something right. Your ability to withstand pain is your claim to fame. It is ascetic, holy. It is self-control.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
25/3/2012 10:19 pm
I don't want to die but sometimes, most of the time I wish I was someone else, someone different. One who didn't have these thoughts and feelings. I want to get seriously hurt and be put in hospital.Just to see who would care enough to come.
Why does no one care until its too late. It really does feel like I'm screaming but no ones listening. No body wants to listen that's the problem, we all care about ourselves too much! Life seems so pointless and tedious I just don't understand what the fuck is the pint? I just want to know. Why and how we can live in so much pain what's wrong with people, why are we constantly wanting more.
I feel like I'm fighting a constant battle every day just to simply survive.
Why does no one care until its too late. It really does feel like I'm screaming but no ones listening. No body wants to listen that's the problem, we all care about ourselves too much! Life seems so pointless and tedious I just don't understand what the fuck is the pint? I just want to know. Why and how we can live in so much pain what's wrong with people, why are we constantly wanting more.
I feel like I'm fighting a constant battle every day just to simply survive.
18/03/2012 10:17pm
For toughs few seconds before I catch myself out, you make me feel like I'm the most spectacular girl in the world and wow it feels so good to believe for a minute. You've put me in a daze and I can't get enough of it. :)
Sunday, March 25, 2012
The world just chewed her up and spat her out.
You didn't understand that there's money to be made
Beauty is a card that must get played
By organisation
And ooh la, she was such a good girl to me
And ooh la, the world just chewed her up, and spat her out
And ooh la, she was such a good girl to me
And ooh la, the world just chewed her up, and spat her out
I never know if sads the right word, but if its not then what is?
I feel kind of sad, like numbness is surging round my body. Making my brain go fussy and plumiting my mood downwards so that I shut down completely tonight. There's no reason for it. I guess it could be a mixture of tiredness, stress and just normal feelings that I have.
I should listen to some happy music,
I want to go for a smoke.
I want to be with Yannick, he makes me so incredibly happy its unbelievable.
I hope to god this 'honey moon' period never wears off.
I feel as if I'm on top of the world when I'm with him.
But why do I feel so shit now?
what's wrong with me?
I should listen to some happy music,
I want to go for a smoke.
I want to be with Yannick, he makes me so incredibly happy its unbelievable.
I hope to god this 'honey moon' period never wears off.
I feel as if I'm on top of the world when I'm with him.
But why do I feel so shit now?
what's wrong with me?
Thursday, March 8, 2012
We could of had it all.
I feel like I'm slipping back into a hopeless place, I don't want to. I've just lost all motivation.
When I'm with Y the emptiness seems to shrink but I don't know for how long I don't want to drag him down with me. I need to be strong, but its just so hard.
why does my head spin? When everything else is completely still.
complications of life, defy me.
When I'm with Y the emptiness seems to shrink but I don't know for how long I don't want to drag him down with me. I need to be strong, but its just so hard.
why does my head spin? When everything else is completely still.
complications of life, defy me.
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