Life is lovely with all it's little complications.

I had a huge fight with my mum the other day, it was pretty stupid but I ended up leaving the house, so she fucking called my dad. He came and got me, and was all like what's the problem? etc I said that we didn't have a  problem that we just had a fight, so he was like Lindsey I know there's something going on, if you keep acting this way she's going to kick you out. We then go some coffee, went back to his house. He told me I could move into his and I'm kind of thinking about it even though I hate my dad more than anyone else in the world, however it would be more like we were flat mates sort of. Any way I came home around 2 or something  went to bed and in the morning my mum was being like "come here, we need to talk" I just left and went to Jenny's house because I didn't want to fight with her and I was kind of angry at her for calling my dad. Later in the day my dad comes to Jenny's and takes me home to 'talk' with my mum. It was basically lets rip into Lindsey day and my dad was like trying to per-mediate the situation. Omg. Fucking stupid. I just wanted to leave, the whole time I was just stinging there like yup, cool bro. hah. Now I have to cook dinner at least twice a week, keep my room clean, tidy the house etc, oh and "contribute to the family' WHAT FUCKING FAMILY. This is not a family. Idiots. After our 'talk' I went back to Jenny's house, then today I went to the gym and did like a weight class it was rather hard, I feel so good now though. Connor has been texting Jenny and I all day, one text will be like 'I fucking hate you bitch bla bla' then the next one will be 'I love you, I'm sorry' Its so annoying, I don't want to talk to him. I can't, what the dick would I say? Why can't things just be simple, really. Oh and Callum just mind fucks me, he tells me he likes me and then doesn't talk to me or anything like wtf? I did say I didn't like him and that I wasn't ready for a relationship but still if you like me just talk to me and be nice etc ask me to hang out and ill probs start to like you cause I usally fall hard. idk. Life's lovely in all its complications.

Suuuuuuuuuurp

What the dick happened to me? :o

Craaazy week! The other day some friends and I went to this guys house and we were all just chilling and smoking the drugs, something really strange happened to me. I really don't understand how it happened. I probably had just less than a bottle of champaign and then to buckies ( btws I have had so so much more than that before) and I started feeling really strange, it was effecting me so much. All I remember is feeling the time going really slowly and then speeding up super fast, everything was spinning and I was spinning the other way. The feeling was almost as if I was a minute ahead of time, watching myself  however it didn't feel like I was myself. I was also having flash backs of my life. Like what the dick. I woke up in the morning at Rosa's house, I walked out to the lounge and Rosa was sitting there; I didn't remember anything really, that had happened the night before at that point. They all said that I was not talking at all and doing really weird things, such as lying on the bed waving my arms and legs! I pretty much had a seizure. Thinking back it was actually the most freaky thing of my life, but at the time I was just kind of thinking can I just hurry up and die. Theeeeeeeeeeen, last night I was with some other friends and we went to this guys garage, were just lacking it doing nothing at all really.  I had a couple of tokes of a joint not really much at all, however I could feel it happening to my again and I was freaking out luckily we didn't go home to late and I just tried to keep busy and not think about what might be happening to me. It was probs the most embarrassing thing, like getting really fucked up around all these guys that I don't even know that well :/ and on top of that It makes me not want to do weed again but I know I'll still do it, I'm weak and I liked the was it has made me feel in the past, although not recently. Maybe it is all because I haven't been talking my pills much lately, idk. I need to sort my shit out. :L yeah.

Ho Chi Mihn

I'm supposed to be studying for my history exam tmrw however instead I went to the gym and now I'm going to dye my hair, what a productive day (:

My weight is 62.6
It neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeds to be a lot lower.
That is all.

Just some cutie photos

My god, this boy. mmm (:

I'm a lucky girl :3

Oh hai.

Wow, its actually been so long. Feels like forever since I've posted on here. I really should make more of an effort I loved this thing. (: so here goes.  An update I suppose

Connor and I broke up :(
I had sex with someone else.
I am pretty happy with life atm apart from the lingering sadness but that's a constant normality.
Right now its pretty late, I'm a kinda tired.
I have an exam on Thursday. Fuuuuck.
Last night I did way to much drugs and shit and like had a seizure passed out and like fuck.
It was probs the scary ist thing of my life maybe apart from when I fist got to see Ola in hospy. idk
But it felt like I was going to die, I had flash backs and everything.
I'm trying to lose weight, I'm think about 10kgs (:
I've joined a gym and yeah that's pretty much everthing I have to say (:
bye xx