I got a job woo

First day at my new job was today. It was pretty scary at first but I did fine.
I did one interview myself and it went really smoothly, feel proud.
woo
Moving up in the world.. hah
Now I just need to focus on and balance work, uni and losing weight all together in harmony.
Time to get serious and stop putting socialising and the computer first!!
I need to get somewhere in life and that will not happen if I continue to do what I've been doing.
Oh and also

DON'T FORGET TO SAVE MONEY YOU RETARD.

weekend adventure

I slept with this doctor guy on Friday, he was 24 and had an extremely clean room. He drove me home in the morning which was nice but I was still drunk/fucking tired and left my skirt and id there which was fucking stupid. Now I have to find a way to get them back..

on another note friday night so so much fun!! It was the best night I've had in town ever, I went out with Lina and Maddie from Espresso. jfsjflksjkl

FUCK FOOD

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT
I AM SO FUCKING FAT
THIS IS NOT ACCEPTABLE


I NEED TO BE STRONG
AND ACTUALLY DO THIS!!
IT IS NOT OK FOR A HUMAN BEING TO BE THIS OVERWEIGHT!!!

I have a crush o.O

I like this guy but Idk if its because he's the first person that's given me attention since Yannick or if  I actually do like him. but it's nice to have someone taking a actual interest in me (as opposed to just wanting to fuck me) and think that I'm good looking. He's really cute and it's good because he lives in parmy so like it wont get to serious or anything. I just love the stage in a friendship/relationship where it's new and flirty and you get excited talking to the person and eee I just want that feeling again!

end of the holz

I'm sick, I've been drinking this alpine tea and it makes my stomach hurt real badly.  I have a mean as cold and it's the last week of my holidays and I'm not looking forward to next semester. I'm so tired, the break has been none stop drinking and partying. I really just need to concentrate on myself this week. Going to bed early and walking up before 10. 

keep things in perspective.

“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want…I want to live and feel all the shades, tones, and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited.” 

—	Sylvia Plath

Such a good night last!

The men exposed, now and then.

Peta - year 8
My brown boy stage. Sarah and I would pretend to run thought the skate park to see him. He tried to kiss me but I was to scared and he kissed my cheek. Wow how things have changed.

 Hayden Longworth - year 9
 We didn't really talk and he asked me out by saying "Do you wanna go out?" me; "what?" him: "they do?" (proceeded to point to my friend and this guy holding hands) hahahhaha

Connor Turner - On and off for 3 years end of year 9 to end of 12
My first real boyfriend, we lost our virginity to each other. He's is a nice enough person but our relationship was poisonous. I cheated on him on his birthday with the proceeding person. I broke his heart and he hasn't gotten over it.

Nick DeSilver - hooked up with him at a forest party. Was a good stoner friend.

lewis - Had a crush on him at swis, hooded up with him at Kendra's party.

Claudie - Connors birthday 2011
We had drunken sex on Connor's birthday, haven't really talked since then. It's pretty fucking awkward

Tom Pope - Summer holidays
Lives in Australia met him in the summer holidays, had sex in his shitty car, small dick, shit sex but \a really nice guy. We will never be anything but friends. I think he may be in love with me. ...

Otis - I think I hooked up with him on new years but not entirely sure.  He's 2 years younger than me and went to school with my brother. haha was not a good decision on my part.

Trent and Jake and Yannick - Small drinks at Yannick's house turned in to me getting with all of them apparently. haha Rosa and especially Danni (fat bitch) weren't impressed.

Yannick Dorsman - Met in December 2011 started going out in march 2012 ended in feb 2013
The first boy that broke my heart. Asked me to the movies 3 times before I finally said yes, we stayed up all night after Rosa's party and ran around the street smashing bottles. I stayed at his house and we took lsd, had sex and then he asked me out. He cheated on me, haven't talked since really. Has no balls. Was fun while it lasted but stoners go nowhere in life.

Guy I brought home - Very awkward in the morning I didn't remember his name.

Random English guy on the warf - I was so drunk I hardly remember anything and I get scared thinking that I can be that drunk and slutty to have sex with someone in a public place. It was raining a fuck lode.

Many other people I have got with in clubs whom I have no idea what or who they are.

#slut

friendship more like one way on a ship to alone island

Sometimes I feel like none of my friends actually like me or want to be friends with me. Like yeah I guess they do, otherwise they just wouldn't be friends with me. but I always feel like the last option or being annoying for asking my friends to hang out, when they hardly ask me. I don't really understand how/why they find it so hard to reciprocate friendship with me? and when they do, I just feel like I'm the flavour of the month. That's just not right. I'm not a terrible friend and I highly appreciate loyalty. Why can't people appreciate me?