revelations.

I have decided that I am going to move to New York. Obviously not tomorrow or next week but I am going to start saving all my money. I need to get out in the world and experience life. I feel like every opportunity I have in this life is being wasted by my lack of enthusiasm and motivation to try. I need to be thrown into the deep end, and struggle for a bit. Life is so easy right now, I rely on other people too much. I think it would make me a better person to overcome such a drastic change. I want to be an insignificant person, with a insignificant apartment, in such a significant city, with a crumby job that I love to hate which only just pays enough. I want to fend for my self. Live life. And have the passion to want to change the world, but not just talk about it, I want to actually try.

To make this happen I need to slowly start changing myself. These steps are going to help get me to where I want to be in my life hopefully by next year. I need to work on my body, my habits, spending and saving
  and work to make myself an overall better person.