Iam

Empty, hurt, cold, dark, closed, desperate, angry, tired, blank, broken, and alone.


I want to sleep, just one night of good proper sleep where I don’t wake up shivering, shaking but feeling nothing. I want to go to sleep and never wake up; the thing is I don’t think anyone would notice. They really wouldn’t. I’d just be there in the corner one day and gone the next. Like someone had put me out in the recycling however I don’t think I’d be much good for that so broken, so unusable.
I just can’t do it because I know that you need me, too much or maybe I need you but I couldn’t abandonee, you leave you alone in that horrible place with all of them, I couldn’t do it to you.


I've tried once before but you’re the only thing stopping me. I want to, I do. The pain is too much to bear. There is a weight in my body, getting heavier and heavier. I don’t know how much longer I will be able to stand it, I want to leave it all behind. Forever.