i will fix you.

I did this to you. It’s my fault. Maybe you think you need attention, or it’s true or do some people see other people’s problems and decided that they need them to because its like they’re missing out on something.. Why all of a sudden has it come like this? Why? Because of me, probably. It doesn't seem too bad at the moment but if you keep trying to pretend like you’re like this you’re going to become like it and believe me you really don't want to, you don't. It is hell. I don't want you to go through the things I went through. Every day was a struggle to keep going.

I just feel so responsible for what’s happening; everything's my fault, it always is and I guess I accept that everything I do, I do it so wrong. I don't want you to go down this hole. I really don't. I've made progress I think. not a lot but a bit, some of its a show or a mask I put on to make others think I'm better however some of it is real and I don't want to be pulled down the hole with you. But I can feel myself starting to already and I hate myself for letting this happen to you.

I want you to talk to me about it, I want you to tell me everything. I can help, I can. I can take your demons away and patch you up. I don't even care if I never get fixed because I know I’m too damage too broken and lost to be now anyway but you, you’re not. So I will do it. I’m sorry for everything I’ve done to you. now what I need to do is fix you and I will. It’s what I have to do.