Back to my good old friend, my blog it’s been a while. Maybe too long. But then maybe that’s good. I’ve been talking to my councilor and I think its helping. I feel a bit better. I think it’s about taking one day as it comes and just living to your potential. I’m not too sure really but that’s what I think.
Today wasn’t such a great day, it was alright yeah. But then I found out things. I started to feel how I used to again. I don’t want to feel like this, it’s not nice I want to be normal and happy and I’m trying hard, so hard. You wouldn’t believe.
My whole life people have always told me that I want good enough. That I couldn't do this. Couldn’t do that. I wasn't pretty enough. Wasn’t cool enough. The list goes on... you name it, people have told me it. I want to be good enough, I do... i feel like its true tho. However, I suppose if someone says something to you enough you start to believe it. The sad thing is even if they were joking or didn't mean it, just in the spur of the moment or decided to say something horrible just to hurt you. you know what it works. It gets you thinking. I've never really believed it when people tell you that if someone says something mean to you its because they're jealous of you, I mean it makes sense I guess but I still don't really get it and I don't get how saying so horrible to the other person is going to make you feel better.
My friend, she had a problem. She’s sick, and I get that. It’s hard for her and it’s hard for the people around her. It really is. But we try to get through it as best we can and I guess you could say that I wasn’t coping before okay I really wasn’t at all. I still mightn’t be. But I will be someday soon I hope. Someday soon.
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