9:09pm that same night.

I just cut myself for the first time in over a year, possibly 2 years. This is not okay I don't want to be this weak, empty needy person any more. The worst part is I did it on my wrist. I've never cut there before, only on my hips. I mean I would have trouble hiding them from Yannick there but my wrist thats so much worse than anywhere else. It's like I'm gagging for attention. fuck im so pathetic. I hate being this way but at the same time I thrive off it. Its all I've known for too long. I thought it had gotten better, however bits still linguine inside me. I somewhat thought it always would, but lately everything seems to be getting worse.