I’m not anyone’s first choice. I’m not anyone’s favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I’m special to them but I know there’s someone they will always choose over me.

I didn't see you for about four day! four days and at points I felt so horrible and lonely. I actually missed you so much, it hurt sometimes. That makes me feel so dependant, incredibly needy and above all pathetic. although I was so afraid that you wouldn't miss me. I even had a dream that you came back and broke up with me cause you didn't miss me. Never fear he came back and it was perfect,we chatted, cuddled, had great sex and watched a movie. Sounds lame but wow, was it perfect. In that moment I was so happy. Nothing in the world mattered apart form the space between our bodies. I wish moments like this would never end. I love him, I love him, I really do.