Fuck depression.

Depression is something that will always be with me, long ago did I come to accept. I feel it will always be here. I despise myself for the plain and simple fact that I don't have the right. 

Nothing terribly terrible has happened to me. I do not understand how a person, a kid even can have this kind of pain for no blatant reason. 

I was around 8 when I first started self harming.  Is depression a way of controlling the population? Is it a chemical put in our water that some are more susceptible to? Cause how the fuck can an 8 year old get depressed? Someone please tell me.