To the boy i loved. .

Firstly I’d just like to say on the small chance that you may stumble upon this:

This isn’t an attempt to get you back. You need to move on, and I think you have, which is good.


Hear goes I’m sorry i guess you’ve heard it a lot. Too many times its most likely lost its meaning just like the word love. But I am. .  Sorry

I know I hurt you countless times, and I could be horrible to you. Sometimes I would just take all my anger and frustration out on you. The reason is I suppose that its easier to take it out on you cause I thought you would always love me, I thought that at the end of the day you would forgive me.

I know we fort a lot however we also had great times together. With you I felt happy just in that moment went you put your arms around me I felt save like nothing could ever touch me or hurt me. As if it rays of glee coming out of me were protecting us. But in the end it was me who hurt us.


Don’t you ever think that it was because of you that this happened because it wasn’t, it wasn’t. It was all me, you were anything if not more than any girl could ask for. I just fucked it up. I hope one day I will be able to explain it, to you. Right now I can’t even explain it to my self it complicated and I know people say that all the time. It is though, I just can’t put it in to words and tell you maybe because I’m seared. Maybe because I’m tired of thinking. Maybe because I’m just not strong enough to deal with any of this right now.


What I’m trying to say is that I know I’ve hurt too many times and I know I’ve sad sorry to many times. I just needed to get this off my chest. I’m not expecting you to forgive me I’m not expecting you to come running back to me because I don’t want you to it wouldn’t be right.


Well I hope one day we might be able to be friends and talk like we used to but who knows what the worlds got in store for us? Really? Its just up to chance lets just leave it up to that. Ill miss you.