i feel like this . . and sometimes i feel like this. .

Sometimes I feel like nothing can stop me.Ii'm on the top of the world. A bubbly buterfly of joy.

then most of the other time . .

i remember that your not hear and i blame myself, I could have stoped, i should have, but i dont know i just, didnt think it was that bad? i just want you to be here with me. how can i have fun, enjoy myself. i feel so terrible because i know that you cant and then I want to be by myself, compleatly alone.