yannick

Gaaah My fucking boyfriend. and his fucking friend Zoe. I want to punch her and be like keep away from my boyfriend. bitch. but I really can't do that. He'd hate me. It's so weird, he hangs out with her and has so much more fun with her than, he does with me.

I'm not even sure if I still love my boyfriend in that way any more. I mean I love him but I just don't know. We just don't have fun like we used to.
The night of Rosa's party we had so much fun! We stayed up all night, ran around the dim lit streets, smashed bottles on the concrete, feeling like we were two mischievous 12 year old's again. The lure of doing something naughty with someone who I hardly knew was thrilling. We had met a couple of times before but nothing like this. Staying up all night with him, was wonderful.

Then there was the time when Rosa and I went to his house for drinks. It was the second time we met. I got very drunk, we had a lot of fun! Drove on the quad bike, snorted pills and what not. That night I got with Yannick for the first time. That feeling when someone you really like touches you, not even somewhere sexual. Just a touch and your whole body tingles, your heat starts to pound so incredibly  all you can think about is him and that moment. I want that feeling back!

I miss him. I want to be with him, how can I be with someone who invites another girl to one of my friends party? That's weird right or am I being paranoid, fuck man.